tortured soul

two irresolute souls moulded in love
into a singularity
firm exterior, warm interior
it is in this shell that i lived a life
so pure
so free
free of all bounds
you
you burnt a gaping black hole in me
disintegrated the core of what was
me
left nothing but carbon,
the physical remains of a once
complete (forsaken?)
soul
pathetic little worm
so vulnerable
hurt in every degree
if you cut soft material
interwoven
straight down the middle
you leave
edges, rough outcroppings
which scratch
and itch
and make you bleed
now i am an empty cage what was
a man
trapped in child's body
screaming
tearing
gasping
clawing to get out
don't look into my deserted mind
the barren landscape of my tortured self
carved of wood and stone
hollow
be my raft in a sea of misfortune
save this soul not worth saving
find me
save me from myself without you
love me.